Because she did not demand one from me.
Thomas became the most stable person in my life.
He made terrible scrambled eggs, collected old baseball programs, and watched courtroom dramas just to complain about everything they got wrong.
One afternoon, I finally asked why Dad told me Thomas was dead.
Thomas removed his glasses and rubbed the bridge of his nose.
“Because when you were six, I confronted him,” he said. “I told him I would help Rachel enforce the custody order and audit the trust if necessary. He told me that if I came near you again, he would make sure Rachel never saw you either. At the time, she was fragile and terrified of losing even the possibility of contact.”
“So you backed off.”
“For too long.”
He did not excuse himself.
That was another difference between him and Daniel.
Every adult in my story had failed somewhere.
The ones I kept in my life were the ones who could admit their failures without turning them into my burden.
I saw Daniel alone again when I was sixteen.
We met in a counselor’s office.
His hair had turned gray around the temples.
His wedding ring was gone.
He said,
“I want you to know I am sorry.”
I waited.
He stared at the floor.