“No!”
Her answer came so quickly that I stopped.
Mom pressed both hands against her face.
When she lowered them, she looked exhausted.
“You can go tonight.”
“Great.”
“But first I need you to hear something.”
I crossed my arms.
“What?”
She sat on my bed.
“Do you remember when your father and I separated?”
My anger vanished.
“What does Dad have to do with Ethan?”
“Nothing directly.”
“Then why are we talking about him?”
“Because of what happened to you that year.”
I didn’t answer.
Mom looked at me carefully.
“You stopped eating lunch.”
My arms dropped.
“How do you know?”
She swallowed.
“Ethan told me.”
I stared at her.
“What?”
“He found me crying in my car outside school one afternoon.”
The room suddenly felt smaller.
I sat beside her.
“You were crying at my school?”
“I’d just had a meeting with your counselor. You barely talked to me then. Your father and I were fighting about custody. I didn’t know what to do.”
Her voice cracked.
“I thought I was failing you.”