Downstairs, Ethan laughed at something.
Mom heard him.
She closed her eyes for a second.
“Then someone knocked on my window.”
“Ethan?”
She nodded.
“He was twelve.”
I waited.
“He asked why I was crying. I tried telling him I was fine.”
A weak smile touched her lips.
“He told me I was bad at lying.”
“That sounds like Ethan.”
Mom nodded.
“Then he asked me something.”
“What?”
“He asked if you were going to disappear.”
My chest tightened.
“What?”
“He’d noticed you weren’t eating. He’d noticed you stopped drawing during study hall. He noticed you sat alone sometimes.”
I looked at the floor.
I’d forgotten how bad that year had been.