“You thought I was taking care of him.”
“Yes.”
“Because he has Down syndrome.”
Mom’s face crumpled.
“Yes.”
The answer hurt more because she didn’t try to excuse it.
“I kept looking at your friendship and asking what Ethan required from you.”
She shook her head.
“I never asked what he gave you.”
Images rushed through my mind.
Ethan sitting beside me when my parents divorced.
Cookies after my driving test.
My dinosaur drawing taped to his locker.
Chocolate ice cream after heartbreak.
A hundred ordinary moments I had never classified as acts of love because they were simply Ethan being Ethan.
Mom covered her mouth.
“Tonight, when I opened the door and saw him standing there with those flowers…”
She laughed through tears.
“Those stupid little forget-me-nots.”
“They aren’t stupid.”
“I know.”
She reached for my hand.
“I realized I’ve been wrong for years.”
I sat down again.
“About what?”
“You aren’t carrying Ethan.”
Her voice softened.
“And he isn’t carrying you.”
I didn’t answer.
“You’ve been walking beside each other.”
Something inside me cracked open.
Mom squeezed my hand.
“So that’s my condition.”
I stared at her.
“You seriously still have a condition?”
A small smile appeared.
“One.”