She hesitated.
“Maddie, I was terrified. You weren’t talking to me. You were angry at your father. You were angry at me. But you still talked to Ethan.”
I waited.
“So I asked him…”
Her voice broke.
“…to promise that if you started shutting everyone out, he wouldn’t leave you alone.”
I stared at her.
“You asked a twelve-year-old boy to take care of me?”
She flinched.
“I know how that sounds.”
“No, Mom, that’s exactly what you did.”
“I was desperate.”
“You put that responsibility on Ethan?”
“I know.”
I stood.
For a moment, I was furious.
Not because Ethan had known I was struggling.
Because Mom had asked a child to carry something that should never have belonged to him.
Then she said:
“That’s not the part I’m most ashamed of.”
I turned.
She was crying now.
“For six years, I kept thinking about that promise.”
“What do you mean?”
“Every time you stayed home because Ethan wasn’t invited somewhere, every time you defended him, every time you changed plans to include him…”
Her eyes dropped.
“I wondered whether you were doing it because you felt responsible for him.”
I went still.