“She called me the night of the surgery.”
Mark immediately straightened, believing for a moment that his mother might know where I had gone. Diane clarified that Lauren had called first and that I contacted her the following morning.
“She did?”
“No. Lauren, the nurse, called first. Then Emily called the next morning. She sounded… I don’t even know how to describe it.”
“Where is she?”
“She didn’t tell me.”
“She must have said something.”
“She said she was alive. She said the girls were alive. She said not to come unless I could come for her, not for you.”
Mark gripped the roof of his car as the meaning settled over him. Even after everything, he still seemed unable to understand why I no longer wanted anyone approaching me on his behalf.
“What does that mean?”
“It means exactly what it sounds like.”
“Mom—”
“I went to the hospital, Mark. I saw her.”
Mark fell silent. His mother had managed to reach my hospital room while he had been unreachable, and the realization immediately turned his panic into anger.
“You saw her and didn’t call me?”
“I had already called you. Do you remember? Three times. Your phone was off.”
His jaw tightened as he tried to defend himself without revealing what he had actually been doing.
“I was dealing with something.”
“No. Emily was dealing with something. She was lying in a hospital bed, pale as paper, with staples across her stomach and three tiny babies in incubators. She kept asking the nurses whether Hope’s breathing had improved. She was trying not to fall apart because there was no one there to catch her.”
Mark closed his eyes, but there was no way to avoid the picture his mother had just placed in his mind. While he had been with Madison, I had been recovering from surgery and worrying whether our smallest daughter would breathe normally.
“I didn’t know.”
“You chose not to know.”
Diane didn’t shout, which made the accusation harder for him to dismiss. Mark asked again whether I had revealed where I planned to go, but his mother had no location to give him.
“Did she say where she was going?”
“No.”
“Mom, I need to find my family.”
“Then start by admitting what happened.”
“I missed the surgery.”
“You missed four days.”
That correction left him without an answer. Before he could change the subject, however, Diane revealed something else that made his blood run cold.
“And, Mark?”
“What?”
“Madison called the house yesterday.”
“What?”
Diane explained that Madison had claimed to be worried because Mark seemed distracted after the luncheon. Worse, she had casually asked whether I had finally calmed down.
“She said she was worried because you seemed ‘distracted after the luncheon.’ She asked whether Emily had calmed down.”
Diane gave a short, bitter laugh. Her disgust was no longer directed only at Madison, because she knew her son had willingly chosen to be there.
“Your wife almost died giving birth to your daughters, and that woman thought Emily needed to calm down.”
“It wasn’t like that.”