“Sorry?”
“I just mean, Alice makes it look so easy. The classes and everything. Might be good for you.”
Alice was Carl’s new sister-in-law—Steve’s wife.
I laughed because crying into a spit-up-covered throw pillow seemed even worse.
Between work, sleepless nights, a newborn, a three-year-old, endless laundry, meals, and cleaning, every hour already belonged to someone else.
Somewhere along the way I’d stopped taking care of myself.
I’d forgotten what going to the gym felt like.
I’d forgotten makeup, dresses, heels…
There simply wasn’t room for any of it.
“Carl, I haven’t peed alone in three years.”
“I’m just saying.”
“I know. It’s fine.”
I let it go because I convinced myself he hadn’t meant it the way it sounded.
Back then, I convinced myself of a lot of things.